Nice post.
I have a certain jalousy against military for their exemplary organisation and mentality

You will do the job i am sure of it like Max said.
Personny i have raid with some US army people in EQ and we have win against boss in some conditions where other didnt. That forced me the respect lol I was really happy to see i was alive I remember a raid in plane who was the worst i have ever done and we have survive. Reason theses 3 US army guys in our rank saying .. never come back .. let use this strategy and fight ! Lol the first time i see the place i was ( like most of my friends) - really scarred .. Theses 3 fools .. NEVER ! lol
After the win we were all oocing : we win ! we win ! But i remember well the guys saying : dont shout friends .. some other who have loose need to be respected too.
Thats how i play now and its cause of this fools army friends
/hug at Melchizedek !